...Burning Star IV

Yes, I'm still waiting here

 bet you all thought i was dead, didn't you?

well, tough shit.

i'm still here, just working, and staying up way too late at nights, only i've not been blogging about it... one would assume that nothing of intrest is happening to me on a daily basis, at least not enough that i need to blog everynight...

but enough of that shit already...

the power went out at work again tonight... you remember about a month ago, where the power was out for damn near 7 hours at work??? well, it's happened again tonight... and i wasn't even supposed to BE THERE!!!! (i'm not sure, but that may have been the case last time too.... lol, anyways, they did the same song and dance about it this time, only they had the power back up in under two hours, which is a drastic improvement... still, no one knows why the power is punking out, at what seems to be regular intervals, at the end of every month... someone mention that it had to do with a fan in the freezer... sounded like a bullshit theory to me, so i tuned it out..

the saddest part about this entire experiance, now for the second time in my career with Sheetz, is that, yet again, they called in a tech-guru from 3 hours away (this time, he got there in 45 minutes, and wanna know just how many laws he broke pulling that off), and all this fucking hoop-la, for what? so the goddamned monkey could flip a switch...that's right, i said it... AND THE MONKEY FLIPS THE SWITCH... i swear, he had the entire store lit-up and back online in uder 3 minutes, and that's including the time it took him to pull into the goddamned parking lot... all he had to do (read: all WE had to do, but weren't ALLOWED to do), was throw the main circiut breaker into the "on" position...

my question is, what the fuck are they paying this guy????

anyways, enough of that shit...

so i'm going to get my ears pierced again... i mean, not much to say about that... that's it, i'm piercing them again... just letting you guys know i guess...

jesus, what the fuck was that shit about???

so COHEED AND CAMBRIA are playing Norfolk on April the 11th!!!!! i'm SO fucking going to that, and hopefully i'll have my Keywork Tattoo by then, or if not, i can get it afterwards, in memory of what i'm sure will be the greatest rock experiance of my life!!!! in other news on the Co/Ca front, i've been learning more of their songs on guitar... it's awesome, because they have such intricate guitar work, that when you hear it, you go "no fucking way can i play that", but when you sit there, and listen to it and tab it out, you realize, it's not that hard at all! but singing the songs WHILE playing the mildly difficult riffs? still working on that one... tonight, i sat here and learned all the rythym parts for "The Suffering"... quite happy with it too...

Enough of that, for now...

i want a Katana... seriously... then, i'm going to train myself in the art of the Blade, in my backyard... i'll prolly even dig out my Gui and practice in it... then, i shall proceed to terrorize the neighbors with my amazing samurai skills... is this strange? but i'm seriously getting at least one that i know of, maybe two... just some cheapy ones that i can practice with... Ryan's selling me one of his, i think it's a Nodachi... looks like a walking stick, but it's got a goddamned katana in it... kick the shit out of those sword canes any day...

Anyways, enough of this shit...

BHC

This is the Title...

 ... that has nothing to do with anything...

i'm never here anymore, but it's not like i don't have time to blog anymore...

hrmm, the word of the week is "bunk"... i don't know why, it just is... i've been saying it for the past two days in situations where the word itself doesn't even apply... like, never once have i said "bunk" and immediately followed up with "bed", or "mate", or even "-er"...

ha, i bet you had to think about that last one...

guess what? i'm playing more and more NFSU and NFSU2... ha, surprise, fuckers... and of course, i'm trying to beat all of NFSU with a Nissan 240SX... i mean, i've practically beat all of NFSU2 now, with just that car, but the gameplay is set to "easy" and it really presents no challenge, but i guess that because gaming on "easy" at 2 frames per second is challenging enough... but NFSU runs a *little* faster and therefore, i play it on the hardest skill level...

i should have titled this post *post bunk*... that's been my away message scheme for the past few days too...*food bunk* for when i'm eating, *race bunk* for when i'm playing NFSU, just plain *bunk* when i have nothing better to be doing, but i'm not at the computer...

you get the picture...

tBlog is still a very fucked up little slice of 'net... everytime i come here, the page is always "done, but with errors on page"... though i can see no visible errors... and the tBlurt isn't clearing the text box after you send messages now, which is kinda irritating...

i did remove the music video in here myself though... tBlog is not at fault there... i guess i was getting kinda tired of "Welcome Home" but of course, i'm nowhere near tired of Co/Ca.... still going to get my tattoo asap... i just got $150 from my mom for my car payment, and i'll get a check on thursday, maybe give an extra hundred on my car this time... who knows... if i have $80-$100 left over, i might get the tattoo this weekend...

ah, bunk...

here's an idea: try using the word "bunk" as an expletive... like "fuck"... you'd be surprised how funny it can be...

here's a better idea: make up your own fucking word of the week, and stop using mine...

BHC

bunk!

 beh, i need to update.... badly...

i've been playing guitar, and playing with the gun all week...

i had a meeting for work today... that means i got to sit on my ass for 2 hours, and listen to everyone else crack jokes.... and get paid for it...

the gun is fantastic... i named her "Grace"... a paintjob is in store for her at some point, although i'm not quite sure what look to go for... i just know that her name will be on the stock somewhere...

i want to re-vamp the look of my blog... should take awhile for me to figure out everything... but it'll look pretty sweet when i'm done...

i went and read all my archives from the Agent 47 blog a few nights ago... lol, hard to believe that was less than a year ago... speaking of which, next month, i'll have been a member of the blogosphere for one year... not continually for one year, i mean, i took that 3 month hiatus in the fall... but i had my reasons... anyways, i might plan something special, but most likely not... lol

i've been playing Deadly Dozen and Deadly Dozen 2 with all the cheat codes on, playing every mission as a lone sniper (side effect from ordering that gun)... really, just to see how well i can get through the game as a sharpshooter... funny, you'd think that it'd be easy to get 100% headshots when you're invisible, invincible, and have unlimited ammo... but surprisingly enough, in 15 missions, i've only gotten 3 100%... weird...

i wish CO&CA would put out a new video so i could put a it in my blog... i'm not tired of "Welcome Home", just wish i could spice it up for the rest of youse...

heh, youse...

scott made a new post after scrounging through my archives as well... he found an old survey i had posted... and he asked me to reply to it, with different answers than before.... not really hard to do, seeing as my musical tastes have shifted DRASTICALLY... i pretty much despise System of a Down now... Daron malakian is still one of my favorite guitar players, but their last two albums just did it in for me... plus, i discovered the wonder that is Coheed and Cambria, so i knew instantly what band i'd use for the survey... it's just really hard to think of songs that relate to me in the ways the survey asks for... hell, it's hard for me to think of lines from their songs to put at the end of each of my posts now.... if you hadn't noticed i'd been doing that...

like this one...

scream loud scream sayonara oh oh oh
sweet josephine will you follow me home
scream loud scream sayonara oh oh oh
sweet josephine will you fuck me back home

BHC

 As promised, my package arrived today, and BOY was i excited!!! i had just woke up too, so that made it even better... god, it was like Xmas all over again!!!

i ripped open the boxes, and wrappings, and paper, and there lay the most beautiful thing i'd laid eyes on in airsoft... the UTG M342A Sniper Rifle system!!! it was in two parts, to be assembled, the stock, and the barrel/firing mechanism, which i threw together as quickly and carefully as i could... full metal, 2'7" barrel assembly, mounted to a 2'5" heavy ABS plastic stock.... it looked amazing!!!

next up was the UTG 4x32 Mil-Dot scope... a real scope, mind you, not a child's plaything... made from heavy-duty aircraft grade aluminium, with flip-up dust covers, and a 3.5" sunshade attachment that just made it look that much more awesome!

Then, the UTG folding metal bipod, with R.I.S. interface, attached to a small R.I.S. rail at the bottom of the front of the stock...

the sniper system now complete, i gently laid it to the ground, and ripped into the bonus package that was shipped along side this finely-crafted piece of sniper bad-assery...

i opened a smaller box, containing a KWC fully licensed version of the Sig Sauer P226... at first glance and feel, i was kind of disappointed... it was extremely light-weight, couldn't have been more than 3/4 of a pound in weight, and the mag capacity was low, but accurate in realism to the real gun, which only contains 12 rounds... my feelings of general discontent were soon assuaged when i fired the little bugger 20ft. down my hallway at a 5" target... yes, i fired the little gun BEFORE the big gun... ALWAYS save the best for last ;)... but this little popgun managed to put 12 rounds dead center in the middle of the 5" circle, in a tight 2.5" group!!!! i was stunned! it could possibly be more accurate than my coveted Desert Eagle!!! i was shocked at how a very cheapy feeling gun could be so accurate, ESP. out of the box!!! the guns need to be broken in slightly after they come straight from the factory... the first 3-5 clips out of your gun are usually never your best... but none the less, i feel i got a great little back up weapon just in case my newest monster alerts the enemy to my presence....

then, i moved on to my beautiful new sniper rifle... the UTG M324A... god, i just love saying that.. it rolls off the tounge... LOL you can tell i've got a huge hard-on for sniper rifles... any idiot with an opposable thumb can operate those inane scatter guns and shottys (just look at what cheney did over the weekend!) but it takes true skill and mastery of self-control and of your weapon to do what snipers do in the field...

anyways....

i must have put at least 5-8 clips through that gun today... it will shoot a coke can almost clear through and through at point blank range (for comparison sake, NONE of my other guns can even put a hole in a coke can at the same range), it leave 1/8-1/4" depressions in drywall from 20-30 feet... it WILL shoot through a cotton t-shirt! (again, at point blank range) and i can successfully engage the telephone pole that's 60 feet out in our front yard... FROM MY BEDROOM!!!! that's at LEAST 70 feet of effective range, and it was a windy day too! the wind was throwing my lighter .20g BBs pretty off, but with a little patience and compensation, i was able to tag that fucker three out of five shots... after i get my hands on some heavier BBs (i'm thinking about going all out and getting .28s!!!) i can then zero the scope in and should be able to shoot consistently and accurately!!!

AND as promised, i have comprised a small photo album which you can view here! i'm telling you, this thing was worth it... i can totally justify spending the money on this, seeing as the money was basically given to me by the state :) hehe, my tax money funds plastic airsoft terrorism :) and believe me, i WILL be terrorizing the neighborhood with this thing :)

i'm all smiles about this! really pleased with my purchase, and come summer, there will be plastic death from afar...

With the worries that I'd give her in they told the worst of me
With my wanting just to hold your neck in my arms and feel me squeeze
No I'm not going to give you what you want so if you please
The sin that shapes your voice carries my ears this new disease

BHC (Your Sniper, With Love)

GOTCHA, BITCH!

 I fell asleep on the couch after i got home from work tonight while watching the men's downhill skiing on the olympics... kinda surprising, that one could fall asleep while watching other people hurl down a mountain at 70+ mph.... on SKIS...

i busted my first drive off today!!!! HELLS YEAH!!! well, it wasn't me solo, it was a team effort between me, my manager, and the entire DVR system at work, but i let her know like, right after it happened, which saved her from having to go through hours of video footage, AND i had the make, model, and color of the car... if only i'd nabbed the damn plate number... but we had about 30 kids in the store from a local university, "making a scene" as it were, so it was a bit hard to be in thirty places at once... but right after i told the manager, she went straight to the office, and started looking at the footage... she only had to go back about 15 minutes, and once she found it, she called me in there, and the first thing i saw on the screen was the ass-end of a green ford taurus :) with the license plate clear as day! it was pretty awesome... lol i helped fight crime today...

i found two other ppl to come with me to get my first tattoo... scott said he would come along for moral support, even if he didn't have the money to get one himself... but another guy i work with, and a friend of his, said they'd come with me, and we'd prolly spend the day hanging out... thus far, he's the coolest guy i work with, ESP in terms of music... we like pretty much all the same bands, and he's seen most of them in concert... beats the hell out of the kid who listens to Xtian rock, and the rest of the bunch, who mainly listen to rap, country, and shitty oldies...

MY GUN WILL BE HERE TOMORROW!!!! HELLS YEAH!!!! expect a HUGE picture update tomorrow!!! all you 56k punks might wanna get a few beers or something... LOL

speaking of which, i'm having a ZimaXXX hard black cherry right now... call me a pussy, but i really like these things... and i hate cherry... so that has to count for something...

well i guess that's all for now... i'll prolly game it up for awhile, then sleep, and hopefully i'll wake up just in time for the UPS guy to pull up with my delivery from shortys!!!!

BHC

 well, the weather's been... surprisingly enough... as predicted here all day... we've prolly got about 5-6 inches of the white stuff on the ground, and it's still falling... the radar looks like it'll keep coming through tomorrow, and lighten up by nightfall... either way it sucks, because i have to work tomorrow at 2pm... how the fuck i'm going to get there, i haven't decided... i mean, the roads around here are decent i suppose, but my car is covered, and my driveway is still a mess... it'll take at least an hour to clear all that, which means i'll have to get up and get right to shoveling at like... 10am... then shower, change, and leave for work, which at that point, i'm NOT going to want to be doing... bah...

weather permiting, of course, i'll have my package from shorty's on monday... and i've already compiled another list of accessories to go WITH IT... about $120 worth of stuff, and yes Angie, it does include what makes you laugh so damn much :) doubt i'll get any of it really soon though, i really wanna save for my tattoo now!

sometimes i wonder why i still blog here... no one is hardly ever around anymore, the entire site is still just as fucked up as it was when i joined, despite the change... but i guess it's my little slice of turf in the vast landscape that is the internet, so i'll hold on to it for awhile...

i did modify one of my handguns today, prolly out of shear boredom, but i like the results... i ground down the bottom receiver on my HK USP to allow it to accept an R.I.S. Tactical Light  i have... i was going to show you a picture of it, but tBlog is being bitchy at the moment... weird...

so i've just been laying around the house, eating and watching the olympics all day... one thing i've never quite figured out... if the olympics were invented by the ancient romans, and have been around nearly 2000 years...... then why are we only up to twenty??? LOL maybe i missed that day in history class...

well, tomorrow is going to be interesting for sure... don't quite know how i'm gonna make it to work... too bad i don't get snowdays... lol

and she screamed Claudio.... dear Claudio, i wish goddammit, we'll make it if you believe...

BHC

Everything Evil

 ... i've decided what to get for my first tattoo!!!! LOL this should come as no surprise to those of you keeping up with my blog as of late, but i've decided on the Coheed and Cambria logo for my first INK!!!!

i found a fansite awhile ago for COCA, but never spent much time on it until tonight. i found a 7 page essay on there that explains the entire story of Coheed and Cambria (the actualy story behind the words in their songs, not the history of the band), written by fans, and i'm assuming confirmed by the band (i'm waiting on an email from the essay's author to confirm this). in it, they dissect the online adventures, the Second Stage Turbine Blade (sstb) comic book, and the albums SSTB and In Keeping Secrets of Silent Earth: 3 (iksose), explaining the lyrics of each song, and putting them in context with the entire storyline.

it was actually quite amazing, and cleared up so much for me. i've always known that COCA's albums were part of a much bigger sci-fi scheme, a novel that lead singer Claudio Sanchez is still writing, and i even understood some key parts of the story just from the music... but the essay delved into parts of the story i hadn't even come close to picking up on from the music alone... it's a great story, and i can't wait to read the novel once it's published...

and then i reach the end of the essay, where the author saw fit to include random facts about the story... about 15 facts all together, one fo the last of which was something i've been avidly searching for for the past few months:

WHAT THE FUCK DOES THIS SYMBOL MEAN!?!??!

haha, it's actually an integral part of the greater story, not just some pretty design the band chose to represent themselves... and the essay explained it, perfectly! it's called The Keywork, which in the story is " vast structure of Twelve Sectors and seventy-eight planets, all powered and held in place by giant star-transformers called the Stars of Sirius." while i'm not 100% clear on what the Keywork and Heaven's Fence were built for, i believe it's basically what holds the universe together (any brighter COCA fans out there, feel free to correct me on that). but the symbol is that of The Keywork, and is decribed as follows: "The Keywork (the Co/Ca "logo") does have geometrical significance to the story. When you look at the Keywork, the triangle is the alignment of the planets. The circles are the seven stars of Sirius, forming the Keywork that keep the planets aligned. This is because of the seven circle theorem. The lines of tangency of the circles perpendicularly bisect the triangle."

i used to love geometry in school; it was the only math subject i ever willingly passed. i love Coheed and Cambria's music, both their older and newer stuff; in nearly four albums (nearly??? lol they have four releases, one of which is under their original name, but featured songs later put on their first album under COCA), i've only found one or two songs that i just flat out didn't like. i love the way Claudio has done what few others can, and has written his songs to an entire storyline, and every single song relates to one another; they are all connected by that story. and i love that story... it's become very intriguiging to me, much in the same way that Star Wars first intrigued me, the way i was intrigued, even, by the book "Ender's Game" by Orson Scott Card (and later "Speaker for the Dead")... i don't know, i guess that Sci-Fi just has that effect on me...

so here i have a design for a tattoo that encompasses many of the things i love about something in particular...

how rare is that, especially when the design is also a band's LOGO!??!?! i mean, this can't possibly work in every other situation... if it did, people would get the rolling stones logo tattooed on their asses because they like lips.... that makes no sense!!! lol... i guess i just feel it's alot deeper than that for me...

the only thing i'm afraid of is how many other ppl have this same tattoo... it's not bothering me enough to make me change my mind, especially since i've never seen anyone with it before... (then again, i haven't seen many other COCA fans, either), and seeing as the odds i'll run into another person with the same tattoo, in the same place, is extremely narrow...

i'm not looking for reasons NOT to get this tattoo, but any objections anyone has, i will gladly listen... and if necesery, reject them altogether, and substitue them with a reality of my own :)

stay until wednesday and write me a child-like letter pretending...
at war here in thursday, let's make this our last day at home by the fence...

BHC

Insomniac

 well, this is what i get, i suppose...

i spent the past three days keeping very odd hours... going to bed waaaaay too late, and sleeping until well in the afternoon.... now it's 4am, and i'm paying for it... i'm not tired at all... i can't sleep, restless mind i suppose...

i made my purchase with Shorty's tonight... you guys are that much close to finding out what i purchased with my tax refund :) i'd like to thank Dairy Queen, my former employer for giving me this opportunity to continue causing my friends an immense deal of pain... :)

i never knew a picture of a man in a ghillie suit could brighten up someone's day...

i'm addicted to playing "Always and Never" from COCA's newest album now... i wish they had a video for it, or at least a way i could code the song into HTML so you guys could hear it... it's a beautiful song, if you can, you should download it... and then picture me playing it :)

i have to work tomorrow...... fu-u-u-u-u-u-u-u-ck...

if timing play evident, what will you say when you're late?

BHC

well, that was....

 ...fucking weird.

EDIT: even weirder than that, i woke up just awhile ago, and this fucking blog had been "removed"... what the heLL???

around 3am, i realized how late it actually was... i had been sort of meandering around the house, back and forth between the living room and the laptop (angie was on.. i guess it would've been easier to move the laptop into the living room...)

i've had the house to myself for the past two days, explains the friends and the drinking... mom's in DC with a friend... and as is my usual habit, i stayed up late tuesday night. till about 6am, i think i've already explained this... well last night was not really all that different... only i didn't sleep at 6 am... in fact, i didn't sleep at all... that's right, i'm going on my 21st hour right now of consciousness... i'm really starting to feel the effects of it too... i used to be able to do this so well, stay up for hours on end... i remember a time when i could stay up for 3 straight days, with absolutely no sleep... if i took one hour power naps and had a good caffiene fix, i could go a week without several hours devoted to sleep...

i bided my time cleaning up the house... not that i made a mess of it in my mother's absence, rather, it was a shithole when she left... then, i got creative... more CO&CA last night... alot of it in fact, i went back and put on the Second Stage Turbine Blade... i cleaned my room, spotless, and decided i needed to redecorate my room door... it's a blank canvas just yearning to be made into something, i thought... so what did i do?

got out the Duct Tape, of course :)

i made a nice little square canvas of Duct Tape (standard issue silver), and broke out some sharpies and a ball-point pen... after nearly two hours, i produced the following:

eh, it's not the best looking little thing, but i'm proud of it just the same... oh, it's actually in red sharpie, i just prefer B&W photos....

wow, that lack o' sleep is catching up to me... i might have to lay down...

stay with me and fall asleep, pray to god for no bad dreams

BHC

I have redeemed myself

 HA HA!!!! I AM INVINCIBLE!!!!

well not really, but i did fix the problem with half-life a little while ago... and, after getting past the reactor core problem, flew through what some ppl consider to be the hardest part of the game... with that out of the way, i figured that it would only take at most three more hours to beat the game, giving me a 8.75 hour timeframe... next time i have nearly 9 free hours, i'll consider it...

the guys came over again tonight, and we finished up the rest of the 12 pack from last night... then it was fun with guns :) three guys, all buzzed, playing with BB guns, IN THE HOUSE... lol we all stood at the end of the hallway, and with 2 automatics and a handgun, shredded a target to shit in under 30 seconds... i also convinced john to buy on of my guns from me, to front some cash for my next purchase... i decided which gun i'll be spending the tax money on... and the winner is..

HA! none of the ones i mentioned in any past blog!!! totally changed my mind, due in part to Shorty's bringing about some new package offers... in fact, i'm not even gonna tell you guys which guns i'm getting... i'm gonna let it be a surprise, and i'll grace you all with a nicely done picture of me with my new gear, in full tactical outfit, as soon as i order it and it arrives...

i just hope the deal lasts two more days.... PLEASE last two more days....

in other airsoft news, i've sort of already broken one of the new guns.... LOL i say sort of because the part technically isn't broken, it just needs to be readhered to the barrel, but the threaded tip fell off one of my new M92F's while Ryan was shooting it.. LOL he just pulled the trigger and the entire tip + silencer just sort of... fell off.... he freaked out! but once i checked it out, i realized it was all good, and the shooting continued... but it must be fixed, because i have two IDENTICAL guns that must remain that way...

by the way... CO&CA ROCKS!!! i'm seriously considering getting their logo as my first tattoo... i really like the logo itself, and of course, i'm a big fan of their music, as well as the story behind all their songs... in case you are wondering what the logo looks like, scroll down the the post with the picture in it (K.B.I.)... the symbol on the back of my hand, which i drew on there myself btw, is the COCA logo... at least, that's the one i want.. their other logo is the dragonfly from The Second Stage Turbine Blade... and on that note, i think i'll go have a listen to that :)

anyways, this was a pointless post, but i'm sure you read all of it anyways... thanks, btw...

BHC

i failed you, my master....

 the Half-Life adventure went down as planned yesterday...

and i failed...

i swear to you, this was not my fault... the game glitched... or experienced a bug, or something... point is, i was unable to complete a menial task that would have brought me that much closer to the end of the game... again, i'd like to thank STEAM for completely ruining my gaming experience... because of this wonderful program, i can no longer seem to UPDATE my game to the most current version, meaning i'm stuck with not only shitty graphics, but bugs and glitches that were taken care of with the very first of several updates...

it was so simple, like my brother-in-law phil.... and exactly like phil, it didn't fucking work...

turn the main coolant chamber pumps back on, and then flood the auxilliary coolant chamber... then, swim through the access pipe into the Main Reactor Core, and open the flow valves from coolant chambers one and two... this will, in turn, flood the reactor core chamber, bringing in coolant up to a level where you should be able to swim up through it, and reach the broken ladder which will eventually take you to the teleportation labs that you are not even authorized to know about...

how fucking had can that be, right???

never the less, i played for 5 hours and 38 minutes before reaching this point in the game... here's a list of the games levels, from begining to end:

01. BlackMesa Inbound
02. Anomalous Materials
03. Unforseen Consequences
04. We've Got Hostiles
05. Blast Pit
06. Power Up
07. On A Rail
08. Apprehension
09. Residue Processing
10. Questionable Ethics
11. Surface Tension
12. Forget About Freeman
13. Lambda Core <in 5.75 hours, i was HERE
14. Xen
15. Gonarch's Lair
16. Interloper
17. Nihilanth <this is the final fucking level

you can see just how close i was... you can also gather what each level is like, based on the name, which i think i kinda kool...

anywho, after i gave up on this, my friends showed up, with a 12-pack in hand, and we proceeded to chill for awhile... i didn't get wasted or anything, just a pretty good buzz... spent the whole night talking to Angie :) and finished up by watching "Night of the Living Dead" on shotime.. that is actually a pretty good move.... just, like the zombies in it, very, very SLOOOOOOOOW....

BHC

K.B.I.

enjoy

BHC

guess the word of the day!

 so, been scant on the posts as of late...

no real reason, i suppose, just not alot to write about... just been working, and hanging out, trying to stay warm in this blue-ass cold spell we're having...

fuck, it's cold

my last post generated generally no response... i mean, i got comments from the regulars, but i guess i've fallen out of tune with the advertising thing... i used to whore the hell out of the Blurt, in the hopes that someone would read my blog... i used to generate 16-20 comments per post, but now it just seems i'm fading a bit... oh well

fuck, in general

i shot my laptop screen last night.... shit... not intentionally, mind you, i was just fooling around with one of my new guns, and i racked the slide, loaded it, and then put it under a pillow to fire it quietly... only it didn't go off... yes, i managed to *mis-fire* a BB GUN... the hammer only went off about halfway, and when i pushed it with my thumb, the gun went off, sending a .12g BB across my room at 250 feet per second... i didn't notice it right away, but apparently, i was aiming right at the upper left corner of my laptop... and now there is a nice little LCD circular crack in it...

fucking gun

so tomorrow begins my *Day of Half-Life*... shit, i forgot to get energy drinks... i don't even know when i'll get started, because i have to clean my mom's car out before 1:30 tomorrow, and i'm having some friends over later tomorrow night, so either they'll have to watch me play this insanely long game, or... wait, there's no alternative... i'm doing this thing, and it's going down tomorrow.... end of story... i'm going to beat this game in one sitting...

fucking eh

and that's another thing... i'm getting more headaches from VTM:R... i'm clearing out a Chantry house to a rival vampire clan, and there's a psycho bitch in another room that can effectively wipe out my entire group of vampires in less than 4 minutes...

fuck you and you magik

i was told tonight that i could be seen living the life of that of Nicolas Cage's character in "Lord Of War"... now i must see that movie... although i'm told i wouldn't have survived through the first sale in the film...

fucking russian triads....

i'm about done here, i guess... i'll prolly check in with you all every so often tomorrow to let you know how the gameage is going... i'm not sure if it's even possible to get through all 3 games in one day, which was my original intent, but if and when i finish part 1, i'll evaluate my time, and see if it can be done :)

BHC

oh, and FUCK.

weird dream

 i just had the weirdest fucking dream...

i was racing people in town on a motorcycle... a blue crotch-rocket to be exact, which in reality would never happen... either way, we were getting into some damn high speed chases... i was winning most of the races, untill this one guy, one a yellow bike, challenges me, like a mile before the police station (that all i could think in the dream, was that we were too close to the police station)...

anyways, we start racing, and we pick up an ass load of speed, when suddenly, a ablack cop car pulls out of the station to nail us both... and he did so, by first hitting the guy on the yellow bike head on, and second, by fishtailing his patrol car around and clipping my bike, just after i though i was gonna get past him... my bike flew out from beneath me, and i flew about 150 feet in the air, landed hard, but survived...

minutes went by in a matter of seconds (because in my dreams, time knows no bounds), the cop walked over to my limp body, bleeding and laying on the hot pavement, and once he realized i wasn't dead, just simply threw a ticket on me, and ran over to help the other guy... the ticket said i was doing 200 mph, and for some reason that seemed to impress me... but then i realized that there were people screaming and ambulances in the direction of the other guy...

i dragged myself over there, got to me feet, and stepped of the body of a young girl, which i didn't think much of at the time... yellow-bike dude's ride had gone through a corner market stand, and tore the place all to hell, while he had ended up in a storm drain, which was rapidly filling with water... i was freaking out, because i though i'd killed him, but after a few minutes, they pulled him out from the drain, alive...

just before leaving the scene of the accident, i asked someone if they knew what happend to the little girl... they said she didn't look good when they took her away... and that was about when i woke up....

i killed someone in my dreams, and i'm not exactly sure if i'm happy about it...

Frown

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damn this town

 i haven't posted in what feels like ages...

i bought two new guns from shorty's yesterday and today... i've been looking at them for a log time, and yesterday, they finally went on super-low priced discount, so i took that as a cue to get them before they disappeared... they aren't the greatest little guns, but i think they look pretty sleek, and i got mock silencers for them as well... with them both being identical, both with silencers, they look pretty badass together :) i'm naming one "Veritas" and one "Aequitas"... for those of you who've seen Boondock Saints, you'll understand :)

so i'm playing VTM:R like a motherfucker this week, because, i really fucked up last time i was playing it, and had to start all over... that's basically what i've been doing the past three or four days... getting back to the point i was before i fucked up... lol... and next week is Half-Life week, so mark your calenders, kiddies, cuz it looks like the 7th will be 24 hours of non-stop gaming... and prolly some drinky's too :)

i've offically decided there is NOTHING to do around here anymore... i mean, there isn't really any "nightlife" so to speak, and nighttime is the only time all of my friends and i can get together to hang out... but we'd always find some solice in going to wal-mart for an hour or two, just to kill time and hang out... or going to waffle inn till 2am, just to be there, hanging out with friends... but lately, no one has been wanting to do any of that stuff... hell, i hardly want to do that much anymore, but i do, just to get out of the house...

take tonight for example... we all wanted to get together and hang out... so everyone played phone tag for about 30 minutes, untill everyone knew where we were going to meet... we decided that a nice dinner at Applebee's would be a nice change of pace.... we get there, and the place is packed, i mean balls-to-the-wall packed... so we hit Arby's instead.... i don't know why... then after that, we went to the bowling alley, hoping to get a few games in, but it was packed in there too... we ended up on a waiting list for a lane, and standing around for damn near an hour, just trying to decide whether or not we wanted to just forget about it, and do something else...

we finally left, and went to check out the theaters, to see what was playing... everyone in the group was fine with seeing Narnia again, except one or two, so we scratched that, and went driving around to the other theaters... they found one that still had Walk the Line, which appealed to mostly everyone, but me, scott, and ryan, so they went to watch taht (or walk around downtown, we're not sure what exactly they did), while the three of us just drove around for another hour...

it just sucks not having anything to do around here at night... there aren't even any nightclubs or discos or anything to look forward to once i can get into those places... it totally blows... looks like tomorrow night, a few of us might get together again, and if we get our plans sorted out right, we might have a decent time, but....

let's put it this way... we were so bored and so out of options tonight, we actually considered "cow-tipping"... of course, i suggested we go kill something, namely a cow, cuz we had just mentioned one...

gah...

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