Amongst other things...

 so, who's confused by my last post?

ha! good, i figured if i'm not gonna be around on here as much as i used to, i'd at least give you guys a riddle to figure out in the meantime... of course, that wasn't really a riddle, but actually a serious problem i'm having right now, and although i'm not nearly as concerned about it today as i was when i wrote that post, it's still bugging me...

aside from that, i've got computer problems... lol surprise there! well, really, it's not much of a computer problem anymore, it's more or less a money issue now (another shocker!)... point being, about two weeks ago, my sis's desktop started crashing frequently... this is a desktop that was given to her by me, mind you, when i got the everloving piece of shit laptop i have now... i don't know what really moved me, but i sat down tonight, and gave it whatfor, and a good thrashing (that means, while formatting it, i swore at it alot), and now the little fugger works... sometimes... lol, i was still experiancing the same crashing problems my sis was, only i was noticing a warning box popping up after the reboot, saying the the Video Card, which i installed myself, and had problems with from day one, was to blame for the crash... my sis tells me that's the error that's been popping up the whole time...

fucking duh, why didn't you tell ME this?!??!?!

i could've fixed it straight away at that point... so anyhow, it's running on it's onboard vidcard for now, untill i get about $70 and pop a new one in it... should run better than my laptop does, but that's not saying much... my laptop runs like an asmatic kitten that's just run the new york marathon... anyhow, while it was functioning, i was able to put Morrowind on it, and play a bit (before it's first crash), and it ran every bit as fast as my mom's uber-computer, so i think i'm actually content with it as a suitable replacement for now, until the summer, when i roll in the big checks :)

and now, this evening, i bring you another enigmatic piece of my brain-thoughts, fresh and ready for you to pick it apart...

so i'm still sort of waiting for you to make your move... i bent the rules, i went out of turn, and i think the results show that i'm glad i didn't wait too long... but on waiting, i'll still be here... i'll wait till summer comes, be it this one, or the next... sometimes i just want to tell you what's plaguing me... and the devil on my shoulder is telling me to do just that, but the angel is telling me to hold me tounge, and wait for it to come to me...

tell me, who do you listen to? would you want to know what's inside my head? would it help us, or hurt us? would telling you this change every aspect of every other moment we spend? would you even care?

what do i do now?

BHC